Saturday, 18 March 2017

My little make for my little Evelyn

Hi my friends.

This heart was meant to be given to Claire at Evelyn's party, but after my op I couldn't sit in my workroom too long to finish it. So I thought I would give it to her & Toby when they got home from their holiday in Morocco.

I was just going to make daffodils on the heart, but thought I would try and make forget-me-nots too. I found an old punch of little flowers that had gone in the throw me out box after buying new storage draws for my workroom. It made me look at my punches again, but still throwing loads.

This make was very therapeutic and I really enjoyed every minute of making it. I'm hoping Claire might keep this in Evelyn's nursery but if she chooses to take it to Evelyn's garden at the crematorium I will need to glaze every inch of it and try and make it rabbit and dear proof as they eat everything. They have eaten all the Christmas roses that I placed there, but they're not that keen on hyacinth's and daffodils, paper ones not sure off though.

On the 1st April  Claire & another mummy loss angel are doing a mad hatters tea party in their local community centre, It's also so called Forget-me-not, and it's all for Cancer & for a charity called Aching Arms. Aching Arms is a charity that donates teddy bears to Mummies & Daddies that have to walk out of hospital with empty arms and only a memory box. Claire said that was the hardest thing she ever had to do was to walk out of the hospital past all the wards with new mum's & dad's and crying babies and she just had a box of photo's and hand & foot moulds. Claire got sent an Aching Arms teddy when she got home and I was sent one too. So we make a point of donating every month and teddies are donated to another family that has just lost their precious baby and it's sent from Evelyn Katie Ward. We have also donated more bears to go into the new bereavement room from Evelyn when they finally ok the colour scheme so hopefully we can get started decorating soon, fingers crossed!!. Goodness knows what room they are using now, but the room Claire & Toby were in was very run down.

The teddies are no replacement, but you leave with something special in your arms from another family that understands what you are going through, or even for a sibling that was expecting to walk out with a brother or sister. Apparently younger siblings understand more about what happened when you tell them about the bear, and why they were given this very special bear.

I thought I would share with you a photo of our special bear.

Here Goes with my little make for Evelyn x

hope you like it!

I thought I would let you know how I got on with the results. I rang the doctors and the hospital on Monday 13th the doctor had no info about my procedure at all, but was willing to give me some results of a bowel test that I had never had, so who on earth had their results in my records. It's really scarey. The hospital told me that they are running 3 weeks late in typing op results, but was told I'm sure if there was something wrong you would have heard by now.

To my surprise on Thursday I had a call from my surgeon. Even though I had rung the doctors & the hospital asking for advice about still having problems and basically getting fobbed off over the last 6 months and was told everything will settle down soon. She was really taken aback, and said that I need to make an appointment to discuss my options with her soon. Had my recent op not been cancelled I could have told her what was still going on and she would have probably told me there and then what needed to happen 3 weeks ago. The surgeon that did my op was not aware of what was still on going as she hadn't read my previous notes, only what needed doing that day.

On Thursday my surgeon said she had just received the results from the surgeon who did my op.  She said I needed to talk to Paul over the weekend about the 3 options she had given me, but other than a hysterectomy the other 2 will leave me a bit vulnerable. I have to ring on Monday and make an appointment to see her and she said she will go through all 3 options step by step.

Hope you all enjoy the rest of your weekend, what ever you do have a good one.

Love & Hugs

Tina XX

Friday, 10 March 2017

Evelyn's Birthday

Hello friends

Firstly I have to say a really big Thank you to all of you for your love prayers and thoughts for our beautiful Granddaughters 1st birthday anniversary. Can you believe it's been a year since losing Evelyn. The 1st, 2nd & 3rd March were real thought provoking times for us all. There were tears of what should have been, and our expectations of  happy times to come with a much awaited grand child. She's here just not in the way we all longed & hoped for.

Claire & Toby did a little birthday birthday party on the 4th as they wanted to be on their own for her birthday on the 3rd. They did Evelyn proud, They decorated their house and had a beautiful cake made of the nut brown hare, with their words " I love you to the moon & back" which was a book Claire used to read to Evelyn when she was in her tummy & just after she was born in hospital, and they both read at Evelyn's goodbye ceremony. To this day I don't know how they found the strength to do that. I was, and still so proud and of awe of them.

 I'm worried about Claire for Mothers day as that was the very last day they had with Evelyn, until they saw her in the chapel of rest the day before we said goodbye to her on the 31st March. So still 2 more 1st Anniversaries to get through and "God Willing" we can start to piece together our lives without anymore the 1st anniversaries looming as this past year has been a nightmare.

I've put a couple of pictures to share with you as you have all been with me from the start of our journey. Bless You. XX. That's our Grandbear  as we call her in front of her beautiful birthday cake and she sat on the the little chair her uncle Craig bought her.

Another big Thank You is for your well wishes for my hospital op and checking back to see if I am OK. You are all so thoughtful.

I am thankful to say the op did go ahead on the Monday. It's nearly 2 weeks later and I still have not had any results yet. No news is is good news right.  I'm not a negative person but I am still having lady problems that according to the paperwork I came out with things would settle in a couple of days, but as yet has not. I really need to contact my surgeon again and have a word, I don't think I can go another 6 months like this I'm exhausted. Hey Ho!! I will bounce back, I will get this sorted, but I can't believe they can be so slack. I'm not that bloody old that they can just discard, I've got years to live God Willing!!

SUE SHARMAN. Hi!  Welcome to my blog and thank you for looking in. The Die you are looking for is -: Cheery Lyn Design. FRM149 Mexican Tile Pattern. I did go on line to see if it was still available. I paid £14.99 but seems to have gone up in price and is also out of stock. If you would like me to cut you some and send them to you I am more than happy to do that for you. My email address is    If anyone else wants some cut just use the email address and I will send you some.

I thought while I'm here I would put up some older cards. Hopefully next week I will get around to making a new card and share Evelyn's make with you. I hope you like them again!

Here Goes!

I love making these guy cards they are so quick. I've told my brother in law, this is your card every year. It will just be a different patterned shirt. He's ok with that!

 Another  stamping technique with a pronounce frame. Sorry there is probably a technique for this, but, hey ho, I don't know what it's called. If you would like a a tutorial I'm happy to do one.

Finally, Roses. I love making roses!

See you all again soon. Thank you for your endless support. I don't think you all realise how much I appreciate each & everyone of you. XXXX


Tina XX

Saturday, 25 February 2017

"Golden Oldie's"

Hi My Blog Friends.

I'll start this message with my appointment to have an op on Thursday 23rd. We arrived for the appointment at 12.15 about 1 o'clock I was taken to my ward all the usual ob's done, and I found out I was 2nd on the list for my surgeon. The morning op's were running into the afternoon session and we were told there will be a little delay as the op staff needed a break. The lady 1st on the list next to me went down for her op about 2.30pm. All the other ladies in my ward were going down for their op's, under different surgeons and had been taken to recovery, brought back up to the ward and in time were sat up eating toast and having a cup of tea. I never knew toast smelt so good until you know you can't have any. Even the men that were in the side ward had gone down and come back and some were actually going home. Each nurse that was on my ward had gone for their lunch came back and said " you still here ". They even had their afternoon break and couldn't believe I was still here. Anyway at 4.15pm my nurse came over and said would you like to get yourself ready. I sat there with my beautiful backless gown on, modestly covered with my dressing gown. At about 5pm I said to Paul it'll be getting dark soon, at this rate I won't get out of recovery until it's dark and won't get get home till early evening . At 5.15pm The head nurse came over and said I'm so sorry but we are going to have to cancel your op today as the lady next door had a complication and was still in theatre, She then asked can you come back on Monday 27th at 12.30pm and they have promised I will be 1st on the list. I just really hope that the lady that was in the bed next to me is OK.

So Monday is another anxious day, really not looking forward to it again, as I got myself into quite a panic on Thursday. So fingers crossed it will go ahead on Monday.

There won't be a new card next week . I don't think I'll feel up to it after my op, and the 2nd & 3rd March is the 1st anniversary of when our stunningly beautiful Granddaughter passed on the 2nd March and when she was born on the 3rd. We only have Mother's Day to get through and then we have done all the most painful of 1st anniversaries. I really hope life gets a little easier as I don't think I could do another year like this last one. It's been unbelievably painful & difficult.

I've said this on many occasions, how wonderful your support has been throughout this awful year for our family. I'm really not very good with words, and Thank You just doesn't seem to do be enough to say to you all. I wish I could come and meet you all and give you all a personal heartfelt hug. XX.
Bless you all!

I've been making something for Claire & Toby for Evelyn's room and I will share this with you at some time after next weekend if you would like to see it.

On a much lighter note, I went right back to when I first started making cards and things back in 2013/2014 and chose a few different makes for you to look over again, some I don't know if I ever put them on my blog. It was all so new then and I really didn't know what I was doing not being computer savvy back then, and not much better now!.

Here Goes!

Christmas Crackers I made and the Christmas cards I sent below sent in 2013.

Card I made for Claire's future mum in-law back in 2014.

One of the 1st double layered stamping cards I made in 2014.

 Finally, one of the first roses I made in 2014, even before MIL's card above.

I hope you enjoyed looking back over my very early makes.

I will be back with new cards soon.

Take care everyone, sending love & hugs and of course a big big Thank You too you all XX.

Tina XX

Saturday, 18 February 2017

Final card for Feb

Hi friends

I hope you don't think I have cheated on you, well I have though! Sorry. I have been really busy since Thursday and didn't have time to make a new cards for my sister so I went to my trusty stack of cards and did an Eeny Meeny Miny Mo and this card was in the box I chose. I know Chicky hadn't seen it before, but I know many of you have, so I do apologise, I'll try harder next time, promise!. Chicky loved it!

Well it's a beautiful Spring like day here in this part of Wiltshire, I hope the sun is shining for you too, it does make a difference to how you feel in yourself seeing that yellow orb in a pretty blue sky. These day's have been quite rare her lately, so I'm making the most of it.

I hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend. I probably won't do another new post until next Thursday is done & dusted.

Thank you all again for all the fantastic support you give me in so many ways. Thank you so much X

Lots & love & hugs

Tina XX

Here Goes!

I really hope you'll forgive me doing a second showing of this card.

Talk soon XX

Thursday, 16 February 2017

Claire's Birthday Card

Good Morning Friends

It's 1.00 am in the morning and still wide awake, that's only because I fell asleep in my workroom at about 11pm with half pint on my lap, so I still have a lot to do on Claire's card so I'd better get on with it. I really meant to finish Claire's card and go to bed early. When I woke I opened the door to the lounge,  the bedroom door was wide open and Half pint took a run for it, she loves going to bed. Who wouldn't when you get the biggest part of the bed even though you are knee high to a grass hopper,so I know that she is happy and tucked up in bed and I will get what is left between her and Paul when I eventually get some slumber.

This is the 1st really flowery card I have enjoyed making for a while, and I really hope Claire likes it. Claire, Half Pint & myself are going out for lunch to a pub that has a river running along side, and said we would have a little walk after lunch. It can't be a long walk as Half Pint's Little legs don't do long walks. Paul is going to try and make it in between work to have lunch with us which will be lovely if he can make it. I haven't told Claire so it will be a lovely surprise if he arrives some time through the meal.

Craig can't make lunch so he is going to go over to Claire's late afternoon to give her pressie's  and give  her little bro hugs.

Only My sister's card to go and that's Feb done & dusted. It took a bit longer to make Claire's card today as I didn't have any green card that would do for the leaves so I had to colour some card  with a stamping up ink pad and also coloured the ribbon with the same ink as the roses. I Really enjoyed seeing my workroom in an uproar for a good reason. I hope you like the card.

Went to my appointment on Monday. I have to have another Hysteroscopy, biopsy a smear and another coil plus another procedure that she said would be conclusive. She did ask how I would feel to have a Hysterectomy and I said I'll leave that up to you as you'll know if I need one or not. While making Claire's card today I had a call from the hospital, and I go in on Thursday next week.

See you all soon, and thank you for returning each time, I can't say how much it means to me.

Here goes!!

Well that's it folks, I'm off to bed it is now stupid o'clock and I need all the beauty sleep nature will allow, and to be at my best for my Claire Bear.

See you soon.

Love & massive Hugs

Tina XX

Friday, 10 February 2017

Paul's Birthday card

Hi my Friends

Thank you all for your lovely comments about my boy's card and the bed sit room. It is bigger than it looks on line. Paul has said if we fall out he'd be more than happy to move in there. (Don't tempt me), only joking, we've got more work to do this side of the house now!

Here is Paul's B'day card as promised. I really didn't know what to do, so looked out some old stamps and some fairly new embossing folders and just played. I even put glitter on the card and when I'd finished I thought what are you thinking about It's a man card. I hope I toned it down enough, only time will tell. Lets hope he will be in touch with his feminine side, but I think he knows me very well that I like a bit of sparkle and I think we all need that in our lives.

I have my six month check with the hospital on Monday. I'm a bit worried as things are still not right. I thought the coil was meant to sort things out, but mine has been worse every day, no let up. I will be glad when Monday is done and dusted and a decision is made.

We have the cutest little kitten that has decided to come around at stupid time of the day and night. He is so handsome. I take it he's a boy as for the first few day it came around with a sparkly pink collar, then a week later it came around with a sparkly black collar. We know he belongs to some one but it was out in the most coldest nights we have had. My sister is just as soft with animals as I am and because the kitten slept under the caravan. She opened the caravan door to turn the outside light off only to knock the kitty off the door step. She took it in and fed him, she didn't have the heart to put him out as it was so cold our fish pond had frozen over. He domes back everyday 4 times a day for food either from me or Chick. I know this kitty has a collar so he belongs to some one, and I don't encourage it to come around but it's very hard to turn him away when he is crying at your door. I know I wouldn't like it if some one did that to my kitty, but U wouldn't let my kitty out in such horrendous weather. Hey Ho, I'm sure it will all turn out right.

I have been working on Claire's card today for next Thursday, so no pressure. Then finally my sister's card 2 day's later. I have to say I have really enjoyed card making again and I really hope it carries on after the February's B'days.

Right Here Goes!!

OMG, what button have I pressed for the text to turn out like this, Hey Ho! I hope you like Paul's card.

Hope to see you all her for Claire's card. Thank you all again for still being here for us/me it really does mean so much.

Love & big hugs

Tina XX

Photo and info for you Mavis, sorry I couldn't be more helpful.

Saturday, 4 February 2017

What we've been up to this past month

Hello my friends

Long time no talk. We have been quite busy here this past month converting Claire's bedroom into a self contained bedsit for my sister. We hope to have it completely finished in a month or so. We have replaced a window and put in french doors and little kitchen with solid oak surface. We are doing a new shower room for me & Paul and we are putting a brand new bath/shower suite in the old bathroom for Chicky (my sister). When all the work is finished we will put up a stud wall in the inner hall, this will then give us our privacy back again as for the past year Chick has been living in our caravan and although it has a shower we thought it would be easier for her to shower and do laundry in the house. We also have her bird in the house so she has had to come across the house to clean & feed pansy. You are probably reading this and thinking I am heartless not letting my sister move into the house but, I like my house as it is and my sister has a way of rearranging things and can make things a little difficult. This new arrangement should be temporary and when she has some money behind her she will look for a place of her own. She wants to furnish the room herself so that she can take it with her when she leaves. I've put a few pictures up to show you the progress so far. So just waiting for the plumber to do his bit with the sink and the the bathrooms, get the carpet cleaned and then fingers crossed life can get back to some kind of normality. What ever that is!!

Also I have made Craig's B'day card. It's his birthday today 4th Feb but we are all celebrating it tomorrow (Sunday) 5th. He's asked for his favorite, Lasagne, with a side salad and cake. Claire & Toby are coming too, so it will be a lovely get together. I have another card to make for Paul for the 11th Feb, one for Claire for the 16th Feb and one for my sister Chicky on the 18th. If I get around to making them all I will post them here if you like. Here's Craig's anyway. Not 100% pleased with it, I am just brain dead for design at the moment, especially for man cards. When I had finished Craig's card I found the Burgundy layer that should have been added, WHOOPS, never mind there's always next year or for Paul's!!

Here Goes!

I hope he likes it. I know he'll like whats inside though.

Claire is getting very anxious as this is yet another 1st milestone for her with her birthday, then the 1st, 2nd and 3rd of March. We will be very reflective at this time and I dare say tears will be had by all of us. Claire & Toby have decided to go away for a break, as we all feel they need some time away and just spend some quality time together away from all the memories.

Thank you all for your comments on my last blog, and for checking to see I'm OK. I must get back into answering you all again. I promise I will this time.

Thank you all for being here for us as a family. Lots of love and mega big hugs to you all.

Tina XX