Sunday, 16 October 2016

15th October 2016

Hi my Friends

I thought I would share this very special day with you as you have all been such an amazing support for me and my family, and I can't put into words how much each and everyone of you have meant to me. Just to have you return when the news is still so sad and I'm so sorry for that. I don't mean to make you all feel so sad, but my goodness I'm so happy to know you are all still here.

Yesterday was Baby loss Awareness Day (15th October 2016 ). Claire made some fairies, they are so beautiful, all made by hand, I made my angels Claire also made some little angels out of beads and made choker necklaces with them, which are apparently back in fashion, and were all sold at a baby loss Awareness function that was held in the morning of the 15th October 2016, called " Eat cake for Kitty ". Yet another mummy who lost her baby. Claire was raising money to help refurbish the awful bereavement room at Winchester Hospital that she gave birth in and then, Claire & Toby both had to say goodbye to our grandchild. Claire has been involved in raising money for SANDS (Sudden And Neonatal Death Syndrome ) for the renovation of this much needed birthing & goodbye room and for all the poor mum's & dad's that are going to face that devastating loss in the future. With all Claire has to deal with everyday, I am so proud of her and all the other Angel mummy's & Daddy's past & present that are going through this most devastating time.

Thousands of Mummy's Daddy's, Grandparents, friends and followers, People  lit a candle for " Baby Loss Awareness Day " yesterday. I shared these pictures with Claire and asked if I could share them with you all, and she said yes. Thank you darling Claire XX.

My brave little girl Claire that had the most beautiful Angel baby.xx

This is to support Baby Loss Awareness Day 15th October

This is a  photo I treasure. In all their sadness Claire & Toby still found time to Dress there little girl with clothes they hoped she would wear. This is all the time they had to spend with Evelyn 48 hrs ending on Mothers day to tell her how much they love her and how much she had touched their lives.

The ornaments were a present that Claire bought me, a mother & daughter and then when she found out she was pregnant and was carrying Evelyn she bought me the Grandmother & Granddaughter figurine. I loved it so much for what our future was going to be, Claire Evelyn & me. 

I Can't put into words how much I love my little Evelyn. She was the most perfect baby in every way and I cannot understand why she is not here with us all now.

This is one of my last good bye's to our very special angel baby. I didn't want to let her go as I knew this was my last cuddle & I had to make it last for my lifetime.

I'm so sorry that mt blog is so so sad at the moment but I need to write about it or I think I will go insane. It's been 7 months and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel still. I can only see other families around me enjoying what we as a family should be enjoying and should be looking forward to.

Next Saturday I have big Birthday, and hoped I would be celebrating it with ALL my family. I know in some special way Evelyn will be here. I don't think even she will let me get away without some kind of ribbing for arriving at 60yrs. It's only a number after all. I Love you my beautiful angel baby girl.

If you are still here with me XXXXXXXXXXXXXX.

Thank you all for being here for me, lots of love always

Tina XX